| Are all a part of life. Without them, I believe most of us would fall apart. We need human interaction. We need to know others care. We need to have people to go to when times get rough (or the boys, or girls, in our lives just don't plain understand). We have friendships at all different levels. Some friends are closer than others, sometimes we wish some friends were closer than they are. I have been struggling alot with friendships lately. I'm not sure if it's because I'm just so paranoid or if there's something about me that I just can't keep friendships going. Sometimes I wonder, but at the same time, I realize that I've got some friendships that have lasted a decade and then some. And other friendships are as thick as blood. It makes me realize that I truly am a good friend. I'm a good person to have on your side because more times than not, I'm there for you one hundred percent. Sometimes I feel like I'm the one putting forth all the effort. Other times I wonder if I could be putting forth more effort. Heck, no one is perfect after all. I think I just have a strong urge to have a positive effect on people's lives rather than a negative one. I want to be viewed as a positive, caring, compassionate, person. I want to be viewed as loyal, strong, and trusted. Not everyone is perfect...I know that. And geez...I'm far from it. I have my faults. I feel like I could do more at times. I put up a wall at times and it can be very hard to break it down. But when I get hurt, that wall goes up stronger than ever. I want my friends to know that I truly am there for them, but I want them to be there for me as well. And for the most part, the ones that matter...are there. |
